Self Portrait

Im having a lot of problems, trying to situate myself with a decent portrait.
I can't sit and stare at myself for 30 minutes, much less 2 hours.
Ive never been able to draw myself to where a stranger can go up and yell "Hey! That's you!". [considering it's more like "hey..who is that?".]
I don't know if it's a lack of confidence or what, but it is starting to annoy me, because I am a day behind everyone.
im sure I could do it better if it was a picture of me...
but it's not.
It's looking in a mirror.

I'm not going to give up
I'll try again this afternoon.

Gobble Gobble

Today, as we all know, is Thanksgiving day.
Good food
Oh man, definitely good food.

Mom cooked most of it yesterday, but we had: 
Turkey
Dressing [Nunny cooked that]
Giblet gravy [same here]
Homemade Cranberry sauce [well, i should say all of this is homemade..southern family..hehe]
7-layer salad
rolls
english peas
corn
deviled eggs

For the dessert:
Pumpkin Pie
4 layer delight
cheesecake
pecan pie
fruit salad

It was sooooo delicious
I have leftovers, and will take full advantage of it :D

In conclusion:                    
                                                   U JELLY?

oh no!

I missed the bus today to 3rd period.


That's not good :X

Don't use the Librarian's moisturizers

The tales of the crazy old librarian that smells like prunes is rare. Im not saying our librarian is that, shes not.
But since shes nice to me, she lets me use some of her stuff sometimes.
and well I needed some lotion, and so I used her Aveeno Stress Relief Lotion, and I have to say..that is the most grotesque smell. It just makes me sneeze and i smell it..oh its bad.



It doesnt smell like butt, but its such a strong smell, it bothers me.

ALSO: i needed some germ-x, but all i could fine was this nasty-foam-germ-killer-moisturizer-knock-off.
now THAT smells bad. My friend said it smelled like "beef jerky in a morgue"


So, out of all this neglect of my skin, I have learned to just not touch anything on the Librarian's desk.

P.S. We have college day today...hopefully it will be exciting.

Is today a good day or a bad day?

Even though today is a wet, foggy, lights-are-still-on day, I am perfectly content with it. I may not be able to see the sky or moon but it shades me from the sun. The dark clouds dont bother my eyes as badly, so I dont have to look like a "cool-dude" with shades on half the day.
No
Today, I am a bit worried.
As I sit here, in the library, supposedly doing my online courses, but instead, trying to study, I notice how awake I am, how quiet I am.
Im trying to study for a test...is it working?...no [sadface]
Ive been having difficulty studying for some time now. I am not sure as to why.
It coincides with my need to sleep more...or less..(you're so funny!) Anywho, i was either reading or studying again last night, when I fell asleep. I woke up on the correct time i could wake up, eat breakfast, and still have a bit of nap time inbetween, and somehow dont remember waking up. I do know the alarm went off. So I woke back up again, my roomate's lamp still on (That devil lamp), and I figured:
"hey, its 7. Ok Laney, get up."
I sat a few more moments in my bed, then started to daydream about how the school clocks were an hour behind. OK WHAT? I then realized it was actually 8, and I mean, honestly, thats not hard, to misread my watch. I have one of those small watches that only have 4 ticks on the 12,3,6,9.
"ohhhhhhh crap"
So I rushed out of bed, went to the library to sign in, thankfully the librarian wasnt around to see my entrance. Signed in, then had to turn in my phone.
Because I live at a magnet school, there are certain rules that are a bit different. Such as the "turn in phone before school starts" rule.
The front desk then hastily wants me to go to Ms. Jenny, who seemingly controls the attendance.
I walk back from the Johnson Institute, to the SLC (student Life center).
Will I get into trouble? Maybe. Will I have a good day? Depends. Will I try to make it good? Of course!..So did I also mention that I have to study for a test?


P.S. The italic comments Ive put in arent me and some strange voice in my head or anything. Its just something someone wouldve said about it, or something general audience wouldve commented on. So no worries! But If I do acquire some strange voices, Ill be sure to notify you all. Have a good day!

Studying

STUDY STUDY STUDY!
Get into the habit now, before it's too late.
Chem test is tomorrow.
Help

broken camera

So my camera is broken, it first happened at the celtic fest a few weeks ago, but then eventually went away.
I recharged my Sony cybershot DSC-W150 Super SteadyShot yesterday, it took a few pictures, i turned if off, turned it back on, and TADA! Its been doing this ever since. Its really starting to grind my gears 3:<

Yarns

I learned how to knit, and ever since I learned, it's been a havoc.
People wanting ME to make their stuff
People wanting so much
Im broke, and Im busy
Knitting is simple once you get started,
of course it will take practice and some time to get good at it, but it's not a huge goal you can never reach.

People are just lazy.

My friend's birthday is today, and so I made him a scarf

He just walked out of the room thinking its someone else's
..?

Early ideas of future

Yeah Im only a junior but I have to know what Im looking for before I run into a dark alley.
College is around the corner, I still have time, but this is the last thing I want to procrastinate on.

I honestly want to get a BFA in an art college, and as everyone thats knows me, knows its not cheap here. [ive researched]. So Ive looked at becoming an international student in the UK. Its going to need effort, maybe a little bit more than it would need if I stay in the states. But the price is almost 2X less than, say if I went to Ringling. [Ringling in FL. is around 44,700k a year for total cost, and Memphis C.A. is around 34k..the schools Im looking at I have roughly totaled around 25-28k mainly because of the living expenses(having to use currency exchange from GBP to USD is harsh)]
 Ive looked into Glasgow School of Art and Edinburgh College of Art in Scotland and some others. Theyve sparked my creativity and imagination.

I was, at first, worried about how my mom would feel of the idea of being almost 16 hour plane flight away, and she said if I was going to dream, I better dream big. My step-mom said that as well and it gave me the hint of comfort and calmness, because thats a huge obsticle to overcome: parents. Im not certain if my step-mom has told my dad yet about my idea, since he is important to me, that I dont feel satisfied with my choices enough to tell him.
My dad is the type of person who would want me to know what im getting into. He would probably want to know how much I know, and why I want to go to the UK to study. I have no clue as to how he will react BUT, I know he trusts me, and my choices enough to see what would be best for me.

I also do think MSA that I am currently attending, will majorly affect my chances, and my luck, and even my skill. I also, will try to apply next year to the UK, mainly because of the area and culture it holds, and also the schools itself and what it can offer. I think It would be best for me, AND my artwork. and I know it will take a visa, money, and a lot of signing, but is it worth it? Hell yes.

Princess and the Becca

Well for starters of my fiasco, Ill have you all know that I can be messy at times, BUT I did clean it up...

 

his was actually made a few weeks ago, for my dorm room door. The pastel-y pink is one of my favorite colors for magazine collage [which is what we were working on for Mixed Media]. I decided to have pretty things on it..

 

  and then add a little play with words, which is where "Princess and the Becca" comes in. Princess is my roomate's nickname, as mine is Becca. I thought it was quite clever.